Happy 6th day of Hanukkah for everyone who celebrates! :)
As the end of 2009 comes closer by the second, all of the memories begin to hit me and fade at the same time. Was this a good year for all of you? Was it a year of growth and progress, or a year of terrible events? I always want to believe those "horoscope prophets" , like the one about your golden year, which is supposed to be the day of the month your birthday is. If I was born on the 5th, would my year at kindergarten be the best year of my life? I don't know about that...
Anyways, I always make New Years Resolutions. But it always turns out the same; some are completed, some are partially achieved and some are left untouched. Maybe I set my goals too high? Or maybe I just don't try enough to reach them...
What is YOUR main New Years Resolution?
One of mine is to just be in a good mood most of the time...
And learn from my mistakes, but avoid them for the future despite the size...
What is the one memory that will stick to you from 2009?
I don't know about you all, but this season I have been in a total holiday spirit! The atmosphere is just so lovely... people, this is just one small of the many ways of why LIFE is so precious and must be enjoyed to the fullest!
(but just to stare at, with cold, empty eyes :( )
But Remember way back, when you were very young, had no worries or obligations and lived for fun?
When everything not "boring" made you happy, maybe it was playing at the beach or video games with your friends... or maybe you even looked forward to lunch because after came recess? Ah, such innocent times I miss... :P
It's time to relieve some of those feelings! :D
Sure, life will never be completely care free again, and you will always have to take care of at least one thing (yourself) even in your retirement home, but all those memories of freedom and happiness can be relived... Forget self consciousness, self hate or anything including pain + your self... YOU deserve freedom and happiness! Time to relax, family love and lots of TLC...
This is what the holidays are all about!
Do you remember that magical feeling, believing Santa was actually on the way to your very own house, in a sleigh of reindeer with a sack full of goodies? Best. Feeling. ;)
You need to and deserve to break free this holiday, this year, next year, as long as it takes... I am blowing you much luck and love :)
On a final note, I thought I would include something a bit more personal:
A couple days ago, I was with my family for hanukkah. Of course there was tons of food, my uncle's famous Latkes and loads of desserts, including these made by yours truly , cut out to look like this .
But what really got me was my little cousin B, who hung out with me and stuck to me for most of the time. We watched TV on my cousin's mac book. At the boring parts, she would run out to the kitchen and in a flash, be back with a chocolate covered pretzel. I used to love these things when I was little, a hanukkah treat? (what was your food as a child?) She would scarf it down in 5 minutes flat. After about 4 times she would be too full for dinner. But She would also bounce off of the walls, showing off her gymnastics tricks from splits to back flips. Hours later she would try bites of every dessert, then be all sugared up, bubbly and excited again. B is not a chubby girl. In fact, she is growing so rapidly it kind of scares me. I guess what I am trying to get at, is my cousin B is an example of a little girl who has not yet been exposed to the complex, cruel world. Who is still an innocent child. Who doesn't get the difference between two bowls of salad or two bowls of ice cream. I envy her for this.
Warning: cute kid alert!
This is a goofy pic of my beautiful, youthful cousin B, but she's just being he natural self! ;)
By the way, that blue circle is a pillow with turnable eyes!
Happy Holidays!
XO
Laci ;)
P. S. Has a child younger than you ever taught you something valuable?
8 Honey Bears:
Love this post, a great way to pause and reflect on the year and our state of mind that will help determine how the next year unfolds! You've got me in the mood to bake now! Cute cousin :)
I love all the pictures you put up, they make me smile :) especially the cat, I'm a sucker for cute animal pictures :)
Such an adorable cousin, I am jealous!
xx
Laci!
ahhh this post was so wonderfully and magically written i enjoyed reading and looking at the photos SO much!
you are incredibly wise and amazing!
it is so true a child is so carefree so un aware, so uncorrupted by the world, that they are just so free and i envy my old inner child, the Eliza at age 6 who would eat a huge bowl of strawberry ice cream,ahh lol... i was, well lets just say like an extremely thin child, who teachers would ask my mom if she fed me :( well i dont envy that, but i do envy that i had not awareness of how hard life could be...just looked forward to play dates, playing dress up and watching the occasional TV...etc...always imagined myself as a "teenager" being so cool, driving, having a boy friend and going out with friends, and off to college at age 18... :/
well any ways back to this amazing post! :) i love that sugar cookie recipe, sounds so good, and easy to make(i booked marked it) ;) lol...and i love your new years resolution! mine is to get in touch with the real Eliza without ED...get into a college, and be healthy enough psychically and mentally to go away...and to break all my ED food fears!! ;)
love you to the moon and back! ;)
Eliza
sry for the novel on your bloggie hehe ;P
xoxoxooxox
ohh ps: your cousin B is ADORABLE!!!!!!! :D
Wow, what an insightful, meaningful post!
Today when I was strolling through the mall I saw kids buried in their ice cream sundaes and thought, "Wow, I used to be that little girl." I was that girl until my freshman year of college. What happened to me? Why have I become so destroyed? I'd give anything for those days back, but alas, they are in the past and I must only look ahead.
Everything happens for a reason, so smile darling :)
Happy Channukah
bec xo
This is beautiful, Laci. I love your blog. Life should still be about living for fun. I agree.
Much love, and enjoy the weekend!
I'm totally feeling the festive spirit too this year! And I adore taking myself back to my inner child... doing the things I used to love, simple pleasures, enjoying every moment! The world is so much more beautiful when you look at it through the eyes of a child.
I'm not sure what my resolutions will be this year. But I love yours :)
Lots of holiday love <3
Hannah xo
This was an amazingly thought-provoking and poignant post, Laci. I loved the part about your little cousin...innocence is something really precious, but it definitely isn't something that can be recovered...but we still recognize it, and when we see it in others, we appreciate its beauty and purity...thank goodness for kids like her who reminds us of that!
Happy Holidays, Laci!
I think my New Year's resolution is just to stay balanced... Not overload myself like I did this year. It really took a toll on me.
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